Breakthrough the Glass Pane

“You are not a drop in the ocean. You are the entire ocean in a drop.”
― Jalaluddin Rumi

This month for me has been not only exciting but extremely interesting- !

I must report that for the first time in seventeen years I have been

PAIN FREE and loving it!

The back story:

As many of you know I have been a passionate Horse Woman since childhood and maintained a professional, daily riding and event schedule. In 2000 I had a very traumatic accident. This accident was an attempt by a crazy person to take my life. The full story, novel like, long and intricate- I have been told it is very interesting. That story waits for another day’s writing.

259. Evolution of Consciousness: Blue Rise artistic Photograph of metal sculpture.

 This accident left me with the scars of a very poor diagnosis and in continuous physical pain. My walking and functioning in pain without assistance was better than the original diagnosis -ever- offered-!

I continually researched by way of meditating, reading, lectures, etc. in hopes of educating myself into a different way or reality.

This line of activity all stems from my father and through my experience, I can say: formative child rearing with intention of higher consciousness or good, becomes a subconscious reaction in problem solving when that child becomes an adult.


Gnosis, Gap in Sub Atomic Particles, Energy, Reality, Awareness, Consciousness, Mind, Healing, Infinite Possibility, Human Spirit, Soul – were all interests and curiosities that drove my research as an artist, before I became a student pursuing a degree in Masters in Fine Art.

I realize Soul and Spirit are two academic NO NO’s- but I can now say- Get Over It- its all language for format of communication and information exchange! I am not interested in what language is vogue. I am interested in the cosmic horizon of experience and constructs of infinite possibilities and communicating visually. Education is the sharing of information and vogue language detours thought.

Mathematical Equation:

U is = to C

E = mc2


My MFA is complete!

At this time I have gone back into researching human constructs.

If you have been following my personal muse (art work) over a long period of time; you could have seen there’s always been a common denominator of interest – Consciousness. I find the Human, Absolutely Amazing! I also find great interest in when humans come together as a group and support one another; for me this becomes cosmic intervention or the Magic of the Human being and one can witness astonishing changes – Healing. I realize that I’m not saying anything new- but I am experiencing it in my own human way and processing into visual art.  Theses happenings sometimes called divine- have been recorded throughout time, Christ, Buddha, and all the many other prophets and healers, have shared stories and recipes for the Infinite possibilities of human Constructs or Smart Information Flow…..

259. Evolution of Consciousness_oil pastel 1

259. Evolution of Consciousness_oil pastel 1

I believe my healing is the manifestation of all the reading, research, people, information, practices, meditation and exercises I have been perusing and I am in great appreciation for all of it. At this junction the very important pair of books that I have read is Deepak Chopra’s and David Hawkins, as they gave evidence to subliminal understanding which has informed and or confirmed personal insight.


The reason:

I bring all of this up is not only to reference where the new art work stems from, but to Share in an uplifting way – how Endless, as if dark matter- the Possibilities of being Human are, and acknowledge Hope.

*Hope has carried me over the last seventeen years!

259. evolution of consciousness,

Evolution of Consciousness, 108″h x 48″d x variable when side tables are opened. metal sculpture made from re-purposed metals, which have a story all their own.

About the art:


No. 259 Evaluation of Consciousness 

The sculpture Evaluation of Consciousness or reference number 259, is made from select repurposed material, referencing a pursuit of innate human knowledge or higher self. I have been in the search for understanding and digestion of these systems and ideas sometimes called Gnosticism. The sculpture Evaluation of Consciousness is primarily interested in connecting higher consciousness with material to reference The study and pursuit of inner human consciousness or knowledge. For me it is difficult to communicate in words, but I think currently well done by Dr. Deepack Chopra. He seems to cover all the bases including science and philosophy with a beautiful cadence of ease.

The sculpture is made with a solid sphere on a centered post with small plates as if levels:

The description of a sphere is a round solid figure, or its surface, with every point on its surface equidistant from its center. Or an area of activity, interest, or expertise; a section of society or an aspect of life distinguished and unified by a particular characteristic. IE: being human om pursuit of knowledge to become expanded.

The sphere is encapsulated with a shroud:

Shroud Definition:

1.a length of cloth or an enveloping garment in which a dead person is wrapped for burial. synonyms: winding sheet.

historical cerements “the shroud of Turin”

2.a thing that envelops or obscures something.

“a shroud of mist” synonyms:       covering, cover, cloak, mantle, blanket, layer, cloud, veil “a shroud of mist”       

Verb- 1. wrap or dress (a body) in a shroud for burial.

  1. cover or envelop so as to conceal from view.

Synonyms: cover, envelop, veil, cloak, blanket, screen, conceal, hide, mask, obscure;

literary enshroud.

The lines and shape of the shroud gives place to the rise of awareness, as if rungs of a ladder for one to travel- to, or from- ascension. It also contains, the complications or resistance to spiritual knowledge.

The box is common societal expectations that I placed on its corner spilling opening to offer opportunity for the experience of reaching to new personal heights.

Which sits on a typewriter desk from a man named Bob Roney who owned a bait shop in Albany NY. Roney was a World War Two- Veteran, who served with General Patten, and kept this desk as a keep sake which now serves as visual reference to growth and change across the table of communication.

The table also serves as formal structure (which is a word pay).


I finished the sculpture and photographed, I got to talk about the ideas and enjoy the freedom feeling of motorcycle riding around rain storms. Following a long meditation group session, we headed out on a ride back from Manchester Vermont over Rt.30 into Granville NY. On the flats before town, the Black clouds split open the downpour stopped to the ray of light- a gigantic electric rainbow appeared  in a minute – the second rainbow showed up. Blazing with color, i could  could see both beginning and end, touch the ground. 

The rainbows carry much folk lore and I like to think of the event as a sign, so I worked up a few photographic combinations of things that visually contain my commentary of thought. 


I leave for England and will be away until October so if you need something please contact my office and they will get word to me or you can write to me through the contact form of this web site. 

I am extending my Gratitude and THANK YOU ~ goes out to All! 

For moments of sharing kindness, compassion & stimulating conversations / debates!

I acknowledge even you- who have tortured me, as this has insisted; I look inside myself and stand firmly on my beliefs- releasing negative and reach around to kindness, compassion and healing! ~ 

The fragrance the violet sheds on the heel that has crushed it.                               —Twain or an asylum inmate this is still up as internet debate.

The readings completed for the month’s reference are as follows:

Carl Jung, Laws of Consciousness

Chinese Laws of Creativity

David Hawkins, Letting go- the Path to Surrender. And Healing and Recovery.

Deepak Chopra, You are the Universe; Discovering your Cosmic Self and Why it Matters.


Word play for this month’s title –

Glass- a hard, brittle substance, typically transparent or translucent, made by fusing sand with soda, lime, and sometimes other ingredients and cooling rapidly. It is used to make windows, drinking containers, and other articles.

Pane as in PAIN

Break as in Breakthrough – move- change- catastrophe- events that demand change,  

I wish you all well and Thank you for following an artist’s crazy life adventure!

until we meet again ~mV








Joy takes FORM- Berlin Germany – Dialog / Show

  -Happening – Space Sculpture and Artist Dialog –

Display: Ufer Studio, Berlin Germany Space #2                             

Artist Party Afterwards: LOBE Schererstr. 7 11347 Berlin Germany

This is the presentation of my research project called:

“The Geometry of Joy”

In this blog post you can see the alchemist exchange, by way of words and photographs but you can not experience the embodiment of Joy the work offers. Although you may have come to the soft opening in Texas- if so thank you i appreciated the opportunities that have come from that.   

The Exchange- Enter the door and receive – Happening: the directives have been shortened to five movements because of time and space. Handout is As Follows- 

This sets the Joyful Geometry ground: Laundry, Labor, Action, Accumulation, Memory, Connection, Family, Spirit. The movements work to reflect self and mind as position to self – within.

The Happening is within a physically immersive environment of space-ual sculpture using extended materials, implying pushed context, THROUGH- education and displacement.   

I digest ideas and information through a daily practice of drawing in oil pastels. I have saved the small rectangular cloths called Towelettes, that were used in the cleaning of my hands from the inquisition and outcome of “The Geometry of Joy”. The irony of the word Towelettes is a systemic play on words which became the works name-

“To We Let Es”

A multi sensorial space work with many representations of –

“The Geometry of Joy” 

Actual installation pictures-

no. 318. TO WE LET ES_Final display 2

These Towelettes hold the memory of my exploring and experiencing what has come to be my belief of what JOY is, and how the Geometry exists as Joys equation. The Towelettes record the shape, color and form change, that is the visual metaphor Joy empowers, into a wide range of emotion and life experience, that is not always positive. The line which the Towelettes hang is pure cotton and will change over time creating the tension that exists in life and offering the live structure intersection that Joy is. When the work is hung outside the air moves the towelettes creating changing inconsistent kinetic energy movements where one is allowed to see Joys live interactions as if relationships in action.

The ladder (‘Scala Libera’) which one side of the line is connected to, is a wink at Joseph Beuys and the other side a metal Form, tickles ideas of David Smith. Leading you- the onlooker, to soar the open sky of the never ending expansiveness that three letters offers – Joy –

Joy Is a Geometry of Live scenarios and experiences.

When drawing with oil pastel there are small brightly colored chips or pieces, being the residue, left on the page, which I have likened to Joys effect. Again over two years I have collected chips and created the empowering memory sculpture piece called-    “ODE to JOY”.

The rest of the information is organized into the Book.

Here are two excerpts of the book that I like-

I have always wanted to create a set of Books and took this as the prompt to document this project’s vast scope of processes and research that I have done. So I  made three other books.

One which is a drawing study of the three letters of JOY, created over a daily drawing ritual of two months, thirty of the favorites were chosen and organized into the book called- “Joy Scape”



Next Book is a photo essay and study of light and expression stemming from the sculpture I made of reclaimed metal called “EMBRO”, which looks at erotic JOY.

The last one “The Geometry of Joy” – HAHAHA who would have thought!

Thank you for following  my work and especially for all of you who are involved in whatever way. -Its Been an interesting Journey!







Tentacle of Art for July

  •  a slender flexible limb or appendage in an animal, especially around the mouth of an invertebrate, used for grasping, moving about, or bearing sense organs.
  • (in a plant) a tendril or a sensitive glandular hair.
  • something resembling a tentacle in shape or flexibility.
    “trailing tentacles of vapor”

1: Google 

Hello- I’m excited to see you all-!

I am currently looking at relational and how it forms or informs and reading              Merleau – Ponty, Phenomenology of perception.

Relational oil drawing


Advisers Please click links for Back Ground information on each subject:


“Performing the archive” workshop with Angeliki Avgitidou

To see supporting documentation Please click the link above.

This photograph is the open to “Indian as Archive”.

A depiction of objects organized that becomes alimentary to artist archive.

This photograph stands as my artistic representation of understanding, as I show historical parts organized, documented with the critical information via tags, and displayed on a holder.

The viewer can obtain a written hand out, from the display that lists the piece, via part number, cross referencing all pertinent information such as: date, manufacture, contact and application. 

This hand out is not represented in a narrative but does contain the element of time due to the subject matter and relevance.

The integral small parts belong to antique Indian Motorcycles and are never really noticed, because they support the actual overall motorcycle function many times not visible unless one is building an Indian motorcycle. This exposes some intricate hidden levels behind an American passion of riding motorcycles and supports a new awareness in industrial production of making for function to the viewer.

Indian is an American brand of motorcycles originally produced from 1901 to 1953 in Springfield, Massachusetts, United States. Hendee Manufacturing Company initially produced the motorcycles, but the name was changed to the Indian Motorcycle Manufacturing Company in 1928. (1)

I have photographed the display board intentionally with the sky, fence, walls, grass and parking lot as the background metaphors.

 In processing the photograph, I intentionally took artistic liberty to alter the background implying historical difficulties the Indian motorcycle company endured and the unseen territories of perception, creating a currency of technology into the current world.

This is also a cross road for me to be able to expand the project into American Indians Artifacts.



“Dis/placement and art” workshop with Elena Marchevska

to review background information Please click the above link.

Video art work was created with the course reading in mind-




“Broken Grammar”


William Burrough-

Cut up process using William Burroughs technique.

The work shown above is where I chose 3 random pages from December 1957 Life Magazine. I chose to rip the sentences out for the shapes and not read the pages as instructed by Burroughs in a YouTube interview he gave. I greatly enjoyed the feel of the texture of the paper and the way in which it ripped.

Ironic- one of Ripped definitions is “under the influence of alcohol or illegal drugs”. MerriamWebster, dictionary. Burroughs is iconic for his open dialog in being ripped.

Number 4

Please click the link for supporting documentation- 

“Artistic Research in the Era of Globalization” workshop with Danny Butt

I have been combining research into sculpture using history with recycled materials for over a two decades. Globalization became an awareness  for me through the tragedy of 911- New York City. I created 2 large public sculptures that speak around that event,  political agendas and the human fraction.

For reading diary please click the link- Thank you!

#4 –“Artistic Research in the Era of Globalization” workshop with Danny Butt.

Metal sculpture, In response to 911 /Twin Towers.

Detail of IN
In response to 911 /Twin Towers.

In response to 911 /Twin Towers.

74. Industrial Nation

9-11 Tear - jewelry Made from actual 911 pcs.

“World Change” 9-11 – Jewelry made from actual Twin Towers fragments.

9-11 Tear - jewelry Made from actual 911 pcs.

9-11 Tear – jewelry Made from actual 911 pcs.

Metal from The Twin Towers, World Trade Center

Twin Towers metal made into sculpture

Twin Towers metal made into sculpture

Research is my fav – it never ends and stimulates onto so many paths!

Thanks for stopping by – see you next month from Berlin Germany!

New for June 2017

Report for Sculpture No.309- Daily Bread


Metal sculpture, Our Daily Bread

no. 309- Daily Bread (6-2017 )                                                          24″ X 24″, metal bread baking pan, spray paint, altered by riffle shot. Displayed hanging or standing.






R Daily Bread

flour – water – yeast


knead – no knead


bake – cook – change

define – refine


ingest – digest

extrude – examination – decompose



Daily Bread

Sculpture No. 309  

Daily Bread

(6- 2017)

Bread, eaten and shared, connects family, memory and tradition at the table. 

In communication and through exchanges at the table is where my formative, childhood relationships were initiated.

Bread is slang for money.

Bread is a staple.

The loaf pan, used in the United States to bake bread, in this work is used as a metaphor for American family values.

The alteration of the loaf pan through gunfire commemorates American history and the settling of the new frontier with guns. Gun fire -shootouts- used to define the perimeters of power, ownership, place and personal property.

Daily Bread is a visual soliloquy reflecting on the social pressures that mutate the values and morals contained within the relationship of the family unit. Under fire, whether baking bread or gunshots, extreme change is precipitated and the family is forced to find other connections in their relationship in the new frontier.

The family unit in the historical loaf of American bread is like flour -the main ingredient; extremely important to the community, the family and the child-rearing, mixed with a little yeast, sugar, and water it forms the starter for the next batch of bread, mixed with a bit more flour and left in a warm spot, raising awareness; when baked and eaten carries the raised awareness contained in the bread aides in social digestion and change.

Bread cannot rise without yeast and warmth; change cannot occur without awareness and fire.

Fire is the force; awareness is the food that is education.

In my opinion.


Terms and sources:

Bread word signifying a positive reaction to something.


Basic bread recipe, popular around the world, and is one of the oldest foods.


Definition: yeast [yēst/ yeast] noun

a microscopic fungus consisting of single oval cells that reproduce by budding, and are capable of converting sugar into alcohol and carbon dioxide.

  • a grayish-yellow preparation of yeast obtained chiefly from fermented beer, used as a fermenting agent, to raise bread dough, and as a food supplement.
  • BIOLOGY: any unicellular fungus that reproduces vegetatively by budding or fission, including forms such as candida that can cause disease.

Google search definition; Oxford Pocket Dictionary of Current English.


RADIO SHOW : Artist miChelle Vara is featured on United Intentions Radio episode “Be the Sculptor of Your Dreams…Ride the Vibe with Jesse Till. Listen here:


New Question investigated is: What Body Part Best Displays Joy?

After playing with the eyes and genitals, I settled on the mouth and as always concurrent  Metaphor is reviewed throughout work, with a peppering in subliminal and oxymoron, the fun never ends! The mouth will be tell all next month.


Im still keeping crazy hours- happily :  currently organizing parts, works, writing and continuing on 6 series that I have been working through, over the last year, with a few new ones on the horizon.

  • Far From Blunting 

    michelle vara planning Project

    Working thought Pg of sketch book.

I have produced a few new books as companions to art works and will display in Germany. I am still maintaining my 2 year self promise of 3 Journals, 260 pages a month, which is full of good reflection, drawings that feel like secrets when you leave them alone behind a closed cover.

color explored as Vessel of Joy_2 – 121 pc to the exploration.


 I work to complete: 

Sculpture no. 318.

To we let es = To what we let form plurals = revelation

Ethos= Pathos= Logos, an equation by Aristotle.

Which I will post next month when completed.


I’m excited to tour again this year  traveling to



 Berlin Germany in July, Calabria Italy- August, Plymouth England- September and back to Wilton NY for October, November I’m off again on to the next set of adventures!

Thank you for stopping in, please visit again and~ always- feel free to contact me.

Wishing you Peace~ m







A Year in Review (M506) MFA2- the GeomeTRY OF JOY.

The Geometry of Joy-

“Joy is a mysterious beauty equal to truth and found in the reflective shadows of self.”         -m.Vara

In the two years of this MFA project there have been many intersections and aspects that have revealed themselves in the process of researching The Geometry of Joy. I have extensively considered Joy and the energy it both produces and is produced by through looking to history, art, science, spirit, mathematics, and philosophy as a means to contextualize the series of artworks I’ve discussed here in this blog’s monthly postings and in the project report The Geometry of Joy. In the blog postings one can find the specific information that speaks to the subjects I have thought about and have outlined [inconclusively] below. The information of these postings was masticated, digested, and subsequently expelled into the artistic visual equations which became the focus of The Geometry of Joy. The past two years has flown by; I feel there is still a lot of information to be harvested and will feed the creation of many more artworks on this topic; leaving me to feel like I can and need to do so much more.

An outline of some of the areas I’ve researched leading to the visual equations of Joy as revealed and created in the work could read as follows:

  1. Science of Joy:
    • The mathematical equation as a number is -1.61803…………… [1]
    • DNA, cells, and genes.
    • Energy – kinetic, static, potential.
    • Measurement of Joy. In the body this is KE=1/2 x 2010kg X (6m/5) 2- meters per second.
    • Joy as energy produces more Joy. Energy is a field that connects spirit and science, opening avenues to place -space- being ‘astral’ and means to travel. Travel through zones of subconscious and consciousness > mind.


  1. Spirit and Soul of Joy:
    • Everything has two sides, Yin and Yang, and the fine line between the two is Joy.
    • Spirit practices and Joy originating from the text: Joy is a fruit of the Spirit (Gal. 5:22-23). Employing kind words, sharing, empathy, and hope.
    • Attitude setting through Joy by the first decision of the day; incorporating meditation and physical tests to determine and direct how one is ‘being’ Joy that day.
    • Spirit/Soul: Where is Joy housed?
    • Contrasting Joy: Nature < Nurture; Full > Empty; Growth > Death.
    • Broken Joy.
    • Healing Joy.
    • Possibilities of
    • Joy as Connection; relationships that are physical, astral, and mathematical. Relationships between the material, human, animal, animal to animal, communication, memory, interior, and exterior.


  1. Ideas and Form of Joy:
    • Water as a metaphor for Joy in a parable in which Joy is at the cross section of molecular behavior; forming or organizing energy matter into three forms or phases consisting of solid, liquid, and gas. In the same way water is the only known substance that can exist in gaseous, liquid, and solid phases within the relatively narrow range of temperatures and pressures found on earth, so too does Joy. The unique shape of the water molecule, containing two atoms of hydrogen and one atom of oxygen, arranged such that one side of the molecule (nearest the hydrogens) is positively charged while the other side (nearest the oxygen) is negatively charged. If two water molecules come together, the positive side of one is attracted to the negative side of the other, making the molecules cling together. This simple fact accounts for the high heat capacity, surface tension, cohesion, adhesion, and other characteristics that make water so important to the earth’s biosphere. [2] I think the water molecule is a good visual model for The Geometry of Joy; Joy as the substance binding together positive and negative. [Note: with more time this can grow into an entire series of its own.]
    • Politics and/of
    • The cross section of fear and Joy.
    • Joy expressed through Form: interior, exterior, emotion, body, space, and time.
    • Joy as sound: silence (absence) and sound (presence).
    • Joy as sign: physical, gestural, and lingual.
    • Places of Joy: connection to memory, planned and chance opportunities.
    • Joy in material. Objects as vessels for revealing Joy thru mind, memory, and history of the object in regard to color theory, place, space, and time -physical and mental.
    • Joy as metaphor. Stories, parables shared through the processes of


  1. Processes of Joy:
    • Sculpture
    • Objects
    • Events
    • Painting
    • Photographing
    • Drawing
    • Creative writing
    • Meditation
    • Intention/Chance
    • Mental/Physical
    • Story/History


The outline above only slightly shows the potential of what and how I researched Joy, but not the order or the structure of my research, or its subject Joy. Between the areas and the subheadings there is much overlap; relationships and connections were formed across, back and forth, again and again.

I would summarize in words the outcome of my research in this project as revealing:


Joy is scalar; it has magnitude but not direction.

Joy is the fine line, yet infinite space, between Yin and Yang,

the two sides of Everything.


  1. Livio, Mario. The Golden Ratio: The Story of PHI, the World’s Most Astonishing Number. New York. Broadway Books. 2003, p. 2-4.

The outline above  explained in words the many parts that I believe create the Geometry of Joy. Clickable links are blue and lead to background information/ essays that formed this visual voyage drawn into  inspirations that I culminate as follows in this  blog post.

Welcome to:The Geometry of Joy.

 I- “Honor Thy Material” and “Respect the Process”.

THE GEOMETRY OF JOY  -Project report.

MFA GALLERY    -Photographs of work.

The Geometry of Joy included a survey of 125 people. The investigation questions were set up with a research team. The experience and information was translated into visual material. – Joy Questionnaire 2016_17

Joy photographs

Joy photographs

 The now: Geometry of Joy: Intention of the new work- Finalize, contextualize the entire process into metal sculpture.

316. Geometry of Joy (5-2017)  
26” x 26”, fractured metal welded with hand rail parts from a 1960 Dance commune on Lake George NY. Finished in oil. 

metal sculpture depicting Joy

314. Current Vector (5-2017)
27” h x 23”, recycled metal, fractured through intentional force, welded and finished in oil.


258. Reciprocal Zero (5/2017) welded metal painted with automotive paints.


welded metal sculpture

315. Gritty Titty
12” x 12”, re-purposed cut and welded metal, finished in oil.

tHE QUESTION: What atmosphere generates JOY within me consistently?  

I feel Geometry of Joys exuberance for me lives FUN in the line of relationships, travel and oddity and rust. Fun inspires! So here I have passionately created vehicles from scratch that keep one in the wind – freedom – flight, equating to The Geometry of Joy. The  the warm brown color, in forms rust and is partisan to continuous change.

“Jewel – Screw It”  – made from parts that in the 20 thru the 50’s would be now classified as an Old School Rod. 

Jimmy- “Rust never Sleeps”

1975 Harley Davidson Shovelhead Motor, Transmission 1975: 4 speed, custom handmade rigid frame, air bagged seat, Open primary drive, One off- Handmade custom everything.  


tHE QUESTION: Are Creatures Born with predisposition of Joy?

Geometry of Joy: DNA of JOY – Memory that lasts more than a life time.

VERT- 6″ X 6″,  organized – glued – human, dog, dirt, DNA entangled with other event materials. I use DNA to create context of cellular JOY connecting more than one person or species to a time and event of JOY. DNA is used for sculptures and photographs. This is a new perspective and is leading to further cell investigation and artistry.  

DNA to Geometry

Vert, (4, 2017) 


Geometry of Joy: Goal- finalize, contextualize the entire process into large metal sculpture.


Sculpture no. 256. ˈfôrCHən/z  5/8/2017
120” h x 72” r, flat stock, angle iron, trailer tongue, banding welded together. This piece is meant to change with time carrying a live aspect in steel.

  1. Traumatic Stress Release (4/2017) = JOY

24” h x 12”, seat mesh, valve release, temper spring, real estate sign stock, stainless, galvanized, steel, welded. Finish is intended to be RAW- found.


Sculpture- “Only Temporary!”   

24″ h x 18″ round, burnt aluminum.

Talks about the fragility of human emotion relating back to the Geometry of Joy.



New Paintings- Tar and Oil paint on canvas.





5- Books of Joy,  Artist books, 5-2017, individually hand painted with acrylic, oil and automotive paints. Single addition of each book. The five books take a painterly approach into Geometry as shape, mutating surface of tradition. On these pages I play with ideas- metaphor, interior, exterior, residue, joke, relationships, material and color.  

Five Books of Joy

Five Books of Joy creating a painterly Geometry.



Forms of Joy

MFA Graduate Dialogue Forms of : Joy- Image: Oil pastel marker on board.

“Forms of  Joy” – You Can Light Either End”
Image: Oil pastel & marker on board.



No. 253_ˈembrēˌō/

Is a sculpture that has grown to be an entire survey of  its own, which stimulated new questions for DNA, Cell and Children in the context of The Geometry of Joy. 

To accompany this sculpture there is a book, 260 drawings and 3 paintings not shown here.

M.Vara. A_17 (5)

M.Vara. A_17 (5)

miChelleVara_Sculpture #253-Embryo

Series includes: Sculpture- Book – Photographs – Photo essay – Narrative drawings- Photographic metaphors – Writings – Anti/+- Journals ……….. happening.


“The act of resistance should be joyous and irresistible.” (1)




"applaud boredom"

Where is Joy in -“applaud boredom” a photographic study, essay.

253.Embryo Toy Box. Photograph

253.Embryo Toy Box. Photograph a photographic study, essay.


the Queer Intimacy Series was birthed from the sculpture called ˈembrēˌō/ , as oil pastel on paper.

This is an extended practice to the physical sculpture that was created from the investigation of opposing impression of force and how it sits in JOY.  

The critical review of a Witikins photograph called Arm Fuck 1982, was the starting point.

The oil pastels examine basic nature of form and reaction choosing to use 4 colors as a referance to feelings- reactions. 

There has been many creative writings, that can be found throughout the blog.

Automatism- Reaction writing sample:

Arm Fuck
An arm in the ass
Reaction appalled
And some say filling
A gay derby of indiscreet
A game
Pain – Pleasure
Who’s to gain
Arm fuck
What a shame.


Humanitarian senses violated
Visual senses vomit curiosity’s
Ruptured in
Pain – Pleasure
Driving Fear
Exhausted Overwhement
Remember freedom
Breath – Feel
Sooth self: All that is- is on your side.


Sculpture No.252 Under the Apple Tree

21″h x 6″ round, recycled metal parts welded and finished in oil, specifically chosen to represent symbols of language.

no. 252 _Under the Apple Tree

no. 254

no. 142_ Three Pi 

Series includes: Sculpture – Book – Photographs – Photo essay – Narrative drawings- Photographic metaphors – Writings – Anti/+- Journals ………..

Study: As suggested by my adviser: The process is similar to Marcel Duchamp’s, in Bride Stripped Bare by Her Bachelors, but in his case it took eight years. I have chosen one piece of sculpture called Three Pi and attempted to draw out, find or connect to,  in order to evaluate and find joy in and out of the piece. The processes as follows:




Three Pi – birthed  Background to piston.



Photography essay  – finished as a book Aspects to Geometry.



Evidence Dance

Energy drawings of Joy in oil pastel.

Question: Can automatist action capture the Geometry of JOY in the watching of other beings?



Question: how does string theory work into the Geometry of JOY?

No. 243 Untitled at this time
96″ High x 60 Wide. Welded metal.
Created through the inspiration of reading about string process, theories and black holes as contextualized  to The Geometry of Joy.


no. 351 _Cosmopolitan Meeting 

Sculpture – Book – Writings – Drawings

The Book is the following of objects, events, happenings, over two weeks in NYC, that join together and create a new scene of sculpture.


The Seed series is a book comprised of oil pastels, photographs and oil paintings with poetry. This series has over 1600 pieces to it indicating the magnitude of Joys Geometry.

Altered photographs,

Altered states of process and reality’s.

Seeds of Joy – Oil Tar and Gold leaf on canvas-

Paintings Verta- tar & oil on canvas.

The Lisa Challenge – In a meeting, Lisa Osborn said she didn’t believe my work was intentional and challenged me to create Joy on purpose in sculpture. There was three pieces made and only one shown to the Ti community.

no. 245__ Contexts of Joy 

24″h x 28″l x 5″w, Found parts welded. Parts are chosen for their metaphor and left in ruff finish with oil over top. 




no. 248_ The Thrill is GONE


Garand Shot- Off the Table – Silver Order (1)

Garand Shot

Pain Radical Inspiration 

This series is made by force to precious house objects for a extensive and deep visual  language  that includes happenings and experience.


  1. Principals of Tradition (2017)                                                                                           26” h x 18”, the Rolling pin was used in preperation of daily lunch at the Queensbury NY, high school for over 35 years. The antique water bottle was exploded as part to the Off the Table series, welded together with chandelier piece and structure, left in found finish.

    251. Principals of Tradition



247. Mixed Signals 
28”h x 25”l x 8”w, reclaimed kitchen utensils welded.

metal sculpture

247. Mixed Signals


no. 242_ 

This is done with no welding as requested by adviser M. Bowdidge. Once completed it was used as a piece for performance. I didn’t get a chance to video successfully so at another time i’ll have to do it  again. But it will never be the same. it worked as a platform to the election-  serving – political social – putting on – waist – body- the Haves and the have Nots! contradictions of policy (dis- Comfort) in memory of cake (comfort). Where I showed the piece it was dubbed a political Americans name, it was great fun and the people involved enjoyed each other and the event! totally Joy! the euphoric sense  of community was stimulated and enjoyed.


no. 238_  False Positive                                                                                                      Dimension: 15” h x 6” square
Material: pewter vase, napkin ring, glass condiment shaker, fabric under garment, beads, brass, gold, silver, wire, epoxy.
Finish: polished pewter

No. 238-False-Positive


No. 237_ Nucleus of Adam 
Dimension: 16” h x 6” square
Material: Pewter, wood: table leg, acorn nut, spacer.
Finish: enamel, wax and linseed oil.
237-Nucleus of Atom 10_2016_1

no.237-Nucleus of Atom




Materials: antique plate with 14KT gilding; antique ‘Cranberry’ glass; threaded rod; transmission race; circles; bicycle breaks and bracket; bone. Parts collected in Berlin Germany.

Inspired in Joy of complex layers of Berlin Germany’s conversations.

236. Gold-Means_Art Photo-2016, miChelle Vara, Sculpture, Mixed Media, Junk Art

236. Gold-Means_Art Photo-2016

no.241_ Bucked

18″ h x 3″ round, kitchen objects knife sharpener, with horn, brass rind and welded.


Limb Series – Paintings 

Limp Dick- oil painting on canvas

This series creates a context to Joy as located in pain. Pain is complex Geometry which easily contextualizes research into visual out put. 


Breath of Joy is a photographic series computer altered.

Natures way- manipulated photograph

Natures way- manipulated photograph

Anti Journaling-

i Anti – Journal every day and just pick a sample by randomly opening to a page or a random book for submission by chance. I figure the universe has a plan better than mine,,,,,                    

~I am just the conduit.

~Life is like a stream~
Small particles gather forming shape temporarily
Always in motion
Lucid – Air – Flow- Lucid-
Bear Care- Hold-
Attention – notice- details dissipate rapidly
Beauty each moment- Beauty in a single Breath
Deep details – Distinct differences
You- Me- she- Him – them- differences
Colors – All metaphor- translucent
Life is temporary
Sometimes, no time- to say
Take notice
Take Notice
Take notice of the day………

Research Papers 

Creative Conduit Production [CCP]

Object Energy 

Open Quelling Dismissal

“Social Sculpture of the Artists Mind”

The presentation was a great success- I made a video of my work over the last 8 months to move the onlookers into the experience of: “The Artist Perspective”

I started by asking myself:

How can I use already realized physical work to make/cause a viewer to FEEL how i feel during the creative ARTIST’S PROCESS  in real life.

What is presentation’s goal?

I answered both questions.

The video of my work was in a fast unpredictable pace & large quantity of visual stimulation- art stills shot with intention, showing where the artist lives and how she thinks. the outcome was varied and I was told multiple times how it made the onlooker feel. In one case it made a person infuriated.    

When there’s more time I will expand this idea into finished art works and happenings.             

Imperceptible Self   

Finding- the Geometry of JOY

Writings – Paintings – Oil Pastels – Drawings – Artist Book

Imperceptible Self poem

Imperceptible Self



The International Experimental Art Space –

Remembering the forefathers of art expansion!
John Cage, Duchamp and the likes.
The International (d) Experimental Art Space is an open and relaxed platform for experimenting in art for human growth. This space offers artist, thinkers, philosophers, performers, musicians, writers, a social place to further a practice, lecture, meet, experiment, present and engage with peers or just come to enjoy a conversation and comradery.















Sculpture Project that Rolls- “Screw It”

The Geometry of Joy for this segment is mechanical connection.  I plan on creating one of a kind automobile and one of a kind motorcycle that go together communicating my passions, Joy, and relationships that collide in the process of becoming. 

The car will be named “Jewel”.

The Motorcycle will be named “Jimmy”.

and this segment is “Rust never Sleeps”.


 Parts hunt-  clean- assemble-   Transmission time, 1939 Ford, finding the parts, step by step-

Jewett Build – carburetor  find.

Jewett Build

Find – Cleaning Parts

Jewitt Build


Jewett Build

Frame Find-

Jewett Build – Frame in that there Junk ! 

Nice Christmas present! – thanks Chad!

Jewitt Build – cutting frame apart.

Reworked gears for Transmission- 

Jewitt Build

Jewitt Build


Jewel- connect parts that in the 20 thru the 50’s would be now classified as an Old School Rod. If you who read this know about Ol’-School Rods its done in true to the time fashion. The nose is a 1923 Jewett, The frame is 1939 Mercury, Engine is a 1946 (59A) Flat Head, the seat is a 1970 toyota (SHuSHSuHSH to new), the Transmission- 1939 Ford, custom made bed originally from the Jewett NY- Fire Company – 1950 Dodge Straight axles.                                                                                                                     The current hold up is a (Hilderbrand) Quick Change rear end (I cant Live Without). We have gone to 7 states, swap meets, etc with no luck – Everything has been custom made to fit and/or work together. Yes that will be the final color but a little warmer after I use the secret finishing sauce.


1975 Harley Davidson Shovel Head Motor, Transmission 1975: 4 speed, custom ridged frame, air bagged seat, Open primary drive,1975 Harley Davidson Shovel Head Motor, Transmission 1975: 4 speed, custom ridged frame, air bagged seat, Open primary drive, Handmade custom everything.